When you are ready, He will grant it to you

The OC Fair 2010

So I've been super lazy and also busy. Took a 4 day, 4 hrs a day summer school class for 8 weeks. I'm going to try to shoot/edit/post more.

Here are some pics from the 2010 Orange County Fair. Apparently, this might be the last year because I heard someone (the city??) bought the fairgrounds to build more houses.

• ferris wheel.... I don't really like riding these things
• hot dog... This is the first thing I ate right when I got there
• fried klondike bar... This is all I wanted to try!!!!
• other edibles

So much!!!!

God has been showing me so much of Him through different people in my life. So much to journal (privately) about. :)

San Diego, CA — Land of Fat Food

So I've been going to San Diego every other weekend for the past month and a half. Every time I go there, it's an eating fest! I see the repercussions of it all :( Don't get me wrong, the food is bomb but the scale is getting heavier. The portions are just soooooooooo big!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are some pictures

• La Playita -- camaron
• La Playita -- shrimp tacos
• Phil's BBQ
• Phil's BBQ -- beef ribs
• Hash House -- hot chocolate w marshmallows
• Hash House -- apple cinnamon flap jack
• Hash House -- look they put actual apple slices in it!
• Hash House -- corned beef hash

legs

Lately I've been feeling self-conscious about my legs, most specifically, my thighs. After cycling more than ever before in my life I feel my thighs getting larger and larger. Muscle perhaps? But definitely larger. And then I look at other people's legs and see that they're really thin and skinny and I want those legs. But I know that they have no muscle. Would I rather have skinny legs with no muscle or bigger toned/muscle-y legs. Sigh.

I need to work out my stomach. :/

Progressive Dinner for the College Seniors

Super late post but I want to upload the pictures on here. Abundant Life Ministries hosted a progressive dinner for the graduating HOC college seniors. I helped out with the appetizers location so I'm not sure how the other food looks. But here is how our food looked :) Our theme for our location was airport VIP lounge. We dressed up as stewardesses and set up the living room like an airport lounge and served them. It was fun

• innovative fruit bowl
• uncooked pigs in a blanket
• jesse glazing them
• tomato soup with avocado
• beverage decor
• final presentation fruit bowl
• bacon wrapped tomato // cooked pigs in a blanket

Misunderstanding of Love

I was browsing facebook and looking at one person's profile leads to another person's profile etc.  I came across a "friend" who has just gotten out of a pretty long/serious relationship in the end of 2009.  A relationship that claims that they loved each other.  Three months later, this "friend" is now with another person and everything is all lovey dovey, I love you, I'm-so-glad-i-found-you stuff.  I just don't understand how a person could "fall into love" and then "out of love" and then back "into love" in such a short time period.

Doesn't love take time to grow?  Isn't love a process?  And how can you truly know someone in such a short amount of time?  Can you really learn every single little quirk about a person in three months?  What about the other person's flaws, can you learn to love that in three months?  Ultimately, how can you truly love if you don't know Jesus?

There's the worldly definition of love, and the truth.  I feel like the term "love" is thrown around so loosely in our society that it's become another word for "really like."  I know that there is a difference between being in love and to love.  We love all the time, everyday.  I think we show love everyday through our actions.  But to be in love, I think that is a long long process and should be forever.

I thought I was once in love, but then lately I've second guessed that.  Perhaps life just happened (ref. 500 Days of Summer) and that's how we fell out of love.  But shouldn't being in love be forever?  Obviously that thing I called "being in love" did not last forever.  Did I know the true meaning of love back then?  The only way we can truly love is to know that Jesus first loved us.  His love is unfathomable to us, we could only try to emulate this love towards others and back to Him.  His sacrificial love for us, His grace that we don't deserve, His mercies that we receive everyday, the everlasting love that He gives us, His providence all around us.... Perhaps, when I feel this way towards someone, then I am truly in love.  And in order to do that, I think it takes lots of time and getting to know the person inside and out, experiencing Jesus' love in each of their lives together and separately, knowing that the other is also trying to love how Jesus first loved us.

Love is complicated, yet so simple.